I keep feeling like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop. I keep thinking and feeling that something is supposed to happen. A big miracle, a big understanding, a big awakening, something revelatory that I can point to and say, “Ha!, I knew it all along!”, “I knew there was something behind all of this, and now it all makes sense!” But that specific “ah-ha” moment never comes. So, instead I keep watching and waiting and hoping that one day all will be revealed.